Con

Ya know I’ve been hearing a lot throughout this school year about people talking about me, things they don’t like about me, how I spend too much time with a certain girl blah blah blah. Its what i want to do and who i am. I’m tired of hearing about it, honestly. If you don’t like me or the things I do, please just leave me alone. I’m not mad at you. Just leave me alone. Save your breath and complaints. It’s just surprising how quick people who were either cool with me or my closest to me have been to judge. Maybe I was just naive to trust people. Idk.

One of the more recent things I’ve heard somebody say is that they don’t have much in common with me because i don’t have any problems. Damn, way to simplify my life into a few statements since it’s just that easy and all. This isn’t the first time I’ve heard this. People think just cuz I don’t have any of the obvious problems that my life is perfect, therefore I can’t relate or understand anybody else’s problems. Yes, my parents are well off and are always there for me, they dont fight, I’m athletic, smart, seem to get an okay amount of play with girls. But just cuz i dont have obstacles in these more obvious areas where people have troubles, does not mean I don’t have problems.

If you care to know, I have never had a friend who hasn’t questioned my ability to relate. Never. What sucks is that it’s always my closest friends who I find this out about. Sure does make me feel alone. From middle school, where everybody called me stupid names to my best friends recently calling me cocky or know it all ish, I almost wonder if I’ve ever had a true friend. So if you think I’m completely problem free then there’s one big one for you. I can count the amount of friends who don’t judge me on one hand.

I just hope that one day I’ll meet somebody who doesn’t make conclusions about me based off of the things I have but cares for me because of the person I am and that those who don’t like me leave me alone rather than befriending me and complaining. Gives me credit for what I do for them. That’s a true friend. Why should i have to have problems for people to like me? I’m a compassionate and down to earth guy, I can understand people’s problems without having experienced them myself. Its not my fault my life has been free of too many hardships. You can have a crap load of experiences in common with somebody but that’s not what makes someone your friend, it’s the character traits that you share and your ability to get along

I know this whole thing sounds cheesy but I’m actually dead ass serious about it. I’m just very tired. Sorry for taking up dashboards but this’ll probably be my last post for another year so you can deal. If this sounds a little self centered im sorry, this is just what i think about some of the things i have heard. God, I’m ready for college, I need a fresh start.

Today was soooo fuckin smooth. First off I got up early as hell this morning, bullshitted this psychology paper I was supposed to write after reading over the summer. I wrote two and a half pages on a book I did not read, never rented, bought, nothing. The author has a website and gave me everything I needed to know and I wrote more than most people that read their books. During school everything fell into place. I had all of my homework done and the homework that I didn’t do, I did during my aiding period. Turned in that homework, met some new people in my classes. Oh, and without even knowing it I did my homework for AP Lit ahead of time so I am fuckin chillin for the night

I’ll keep it short and sweet since my beautiful friends made such long descriptive posts about their first day. My day was great. Woke up this morning and it smelled of the first day of school and I felt energized. Summer’s great but i feel like I got a little too comfortable. All my classes were straight and I’m aiding for my favorite teacher of all time. Feels good to be back Springbrook. Luh you always. 

I’d say I log onto tumblr just as much as anybody else on here but I don’t post very often. Not cuz I don’t have interesting thoughts, rants, pictures, etc., but I almost take more interest in finding out about other people. All of those ridiculously long posts that people write and don’t expect anybody to read word for word, i’m sitting quietly by my laptop engaged as ever. Every single person is intriguing to me. With each new person comes a whole new set of experiences, backgrounds, personalities and corks and almost every time I meet somebody new my mind starts to wander and think of what this person brings to the table. Shout out to all the new people I’ve met this year. Mady Nadje, his cousin Greg, his girlfriend Hannah Espo, Martha Frenz, Katlyn Harmison, Aaron Crews and his crew, all the other randoms, Leah Rich(HA!), Andrea Lora and so on and so forth. I hope I meet even more cool people this year, and college is only getting closer and closer.